Things can only get better.

Just when I thought things could not get any worse, they did today. It seems that as soon as I have some good news, there is always some bad news just around the corner that comes and shits all over my day.

I had a real "off day" yesterday but decided that going out with friends last night would be a much better idea than staying in on my own. It was a decision that I am glad I made because it ended up being a good night and for the most part of it, I was sober.

So I woke up this morning, checked my emails and was so excited when I had an email in my inbox from the company in Australia where I had applied for my internship. They had offered me a job and although they had not provided many details I still saw this as a positive even if I was a little skeptical. There was no way I was signing any contracts until I found out more about what sounded like the opportunity of a lifetime.

With the good news came the bad news and after the week I have had it was all I needed. I'm going home tomorrow anyway, something that I really wish I did not have to do. I think this is the first time that I have not wanted to go home.

A work mate that I worked with for over two years had not been very well. Today I learned that things have got worse and there is nothing the doctors can do for him. I was told by another work colleague during a teary conversation on the phone. It's just so unbelievable, he was one of those guys that was always there to make you laugh when you needed it. He was never any different, he never changed, no matter when you saw him and now he is fighting for his life. It just shows how cruel life can be. I keep asking myself the same question, why does it always happen to the nice people?

So it hasn't been a very good week really but I need to keep myself busy. I am really hoping that this internship in Australia materializes, if not then I'm hoping for one in America. If there is one thing I have learnt over the last few days, it's to live life to the full because you just don't know what's around the corner.

Moving down under? If only....

I cannot apologise enough for the lack of blogging I have been doing since before Christmas. I am actually a little bit annoyed with myself for not keeping it up.

However I am back, albeit a little late. So what's happened since the last time I posted. Well lots in actual fact. Christmas has been and gone, New Year was also over before I knew it and I was on the train back to London.

The first week back was a little hectic with deadlines looming but it was all good. I got everything handed in on time and was pleased with the finished products. A commission piece of the experiences I faced when moving from Cornwall to London along with a piece about the Penlee Lifeboat Disaster (all set out on InDesign so it looked like a proper magazine feature) were my chosen pieces of work and handing them in was such a relief. Going to the SU after and having celebratory drinks was an even bigger highlight though.

Now it is time to focus on the big one, the dissertation. Everytime I see, read, hear or say the word I shudder a little bit inside but there is no time like the present to start my research and send out a billion emails to very busy people hoping they will find time in their packed schedule to speak to a poor student. I never know how to word emails, I normally end up sounding too polite as if they do not have to be interviewed or too desperate. I think I need to strike a balance.

Today I was meant to start doing some research but that has been put on hold as while I was procrastinating I came across a journalism internship in Australia that I have applied for. I have literally got everything crossed. Being able to move to Oz, write about my experiences and get paid for doing it and living in a beautiful country that I have always wanted to visit could not be better could it?

I am also doing International Journalism this year and I originally chose to focus on Morocco as my chosen country but I can now see this changing to Australia. I do not want to jinx anything but if I get this opportunity it really could set me up for life.

Right I've rambled enough now so time to get on with some of that "d" research.